Thank you to those of you who have taken time from your busy schedules to read my story over the past couple of days. It really means a lot to know that people love and support us as we take this step.
Have you ever heard people say that the first step is always the hardest? Sometimes I don’t know if that is completely accurate. The second one can also be pretty tough too. My second step was to tell our girls that mommy was going to be away for a week and that she was going to Haiti. You never really know how a 5 and 7 year old will react. I saw how the girls were, especially Emma, when Jason went to Costa Rica. She loves the family all being together and she found it tough that her daddy was away. Now she was about to hear that mommy was going to be gone for a week.
I spoke with them both and talked about the orphanage the team was going to serve at and the boys and girls who didn’t have a mommy or daddy because of the earthquake, needed some extra hugs and wasn’t it great that our church was going to send people to love these little children. On one level I could see that both Cara and Emma understood what I was telling them. They both have tremendous capacity for caring and loving and even when Jason went on his trip, they both wanted to go with him so they could teach the boys and girls to swim. There were the usual questions, but everything went pretty well.
At the dinner table later that day, Emma snuggled up beside me and softly said, “I don’t want you to go to Haiti, mommy” It was one of those sad, heart wrenching moments where you are so overwhelmed with her care and concern, yet feel the tension to help her understand that in the blessing that we enjoy, we are called by God to give to those who are less fortunate. “I dont want you to go where the earthquake is mommy” Emma continued softly. Another heart wrenching moment, which was lightened somewhat by Emma then going on to describe that an earthquake occurs when, what sounded like a giant wrecking ball is swung around under the earth making lots of noise.
It was a bitter sweet moment, and I am sure it will not be the last of them between now and our departure date, but there is one thing that God has taught me over the past few months and that is that He holds our family in the palm of His hand and He wants our family to succeed even more than we do. He never promised that things would be easy, but He always promises that He will be there.
So if you have continued to follow this little adventure of mine, could I be selfish and thank you for your support and ask that you pray for Cara and Emma? Would you pray that God would be close to them and bring them peace in their hearts and their minds and that He would take away any fear that they may have as they think about mommy going to where the earthquake was.